[ Alphen just screams very loudly clutches his fists tightly. He makes a pained cry and looks the other way. Law just hears the laughter of a broken man who's gone so far past his own limits. ]
I haven't been able to get these nightmares out of my mind since Shionne went home. It's unbearably painful and life is so much more difficult without her. To make matters worse we've lost the Blazing Sword.
So I can't keep running away from the truth. I'm nothing more than a worthless freak who can't even die right.
Maybe it is stupid of me to keep going on this way. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't.
[Law knew Alphen would struggle with Shionne's departure like this. He knew it was day one, the moment he heard about the nature of this world and how people can "wake up" and leave this place. but to see him in such a dire condition, well...
...It pisses him off, honestly.]
So that's it, huh? Without Shionne and the Blazing Sword, you've got nothing? All that talk about fighting for our freedom doesn't mean a damn to you if she isn't here to babysit you, is that it?!
[He sneers, a snarl forming on his lips, he clenches his fists tight.]
Without my dad's words echoing in your head and Shionne keeping an eye on you, you just think you're a burnt out husk of a man, right?!
No, you're wrong. I'm even worse than a burned out husk of a man if you can even call me that. I've been alive for over three hundred years. Sometimes I don't even know why I've been living for this long.
[ Deep down maybe Alphen already knows the answers that he's looking for. He knows their journey wasn't meaningless and they certainly changed their lives for the better. It wasn't a pointless endeavor, but he just couldn't stand to take another step without Shionne. She's the reason he's even alive to begin with. He was serious when he said that he wanted everyone to live in the future together. ]
Shionne's the reason I'm even standing here. Without Zephyr's teachings rage would have just consumed me.
On my own, I don't have anything going for me except this miserable excuse. That's what I really am.
So, what, you wanna die now? Is that what you want?
[Law takes steps towards Alphen. It was one thing when Alphen was in a funk after Shionne was kidnapped by Vholran and he was questioning everything about himself, but this was different. he was a disaster and acting like she was dead, when she was just home. she was literally just waking up from this dream they were all in!]
'Cause if you wanna die so badly, then I'll beat the crap out of you until you get your head on straight and stop talking stupid! Will that make you happy, Alphen?! Because I'll be damned if I'm gonna listen to the guy who saved my life talk about throwing away his own like it's not worth anything!
No, that won't make me happy. I'm not going to go and die so easily. There's still a promise I have to keep. Didn't I say that one day we'd see the future you saw together?
[ There's still some fighting spirit in him but it's not as bright as it once was. Alphen hasn't given up on everything entirely. Law's words are starting to sink in though. ]
I feel so lost and confused without Shionne. I still haven't figured out who I am either. I'm not Iron Mask and I'm not the Blazing Sword of Calaglia. My name is Alphen. The Blazing Sword was never part of my identity.
Just what should I be doing now? [ He's so confused bro. ]
[Law starts to ease up on the tension in his muscles a little. He was definitely prepared to fight Alphen if it came to that, but he'll be glad if he doesn't have to.]
You can start...! [...But he still punches Alphen. but in the arm, instead of trying to bust his face in.] ...By not acting like Shionne's dead, man. You're gonna see her again, so I don't think she'd like seeing you like this. And then...!
[Another punch.]
...You can stop worrying about who you need to be. You don't need to be Iron Mask, or the Blazing Sword of Calaglia, and you definitely don't need to be my dad. [Stop living in Zephyr's shadow, man. That's Law's place.
Aaaand one more punch for good measure.]
You're just Alphen. And Alphen can be whoever you want.
[ Alphen is just letting Law beat the crap out of him...because he's right. He doesn't need to be any of those things, but that does hurt.]
What the hell are your fists made out of? Are you hiding rocks in there?
[ He knows all about how you attach rocks on for additional weights, Law. Alphen just kind of tries to recollect himself and then sighs. ]
Don't push your luck with me. Shionne's not dead, I know I'll see her again someday. I just miss her so much it hurts. Law, can you stop punching me please?
[And he does as he says, giving Alphen's arm one last punch, before letting his hands drop to his side. He had a lot of pent up aggression and adrenaline to let out there, okay.]
You taught the rest of us how to keep on living and be more than what we came from. So now it's your turn. Keep on living, and become someone worthy of her.
Don't punch me anymore. Do I seem that dead to you? It must be that bad, huh.
[ Alphen looks at himself everything really hurts. He doesn't feel right and everything's a mess. Maybe he's just really tired and not making much sense. ]
I'm sorry and thank you. There's somebody else I owe a debt to that I could never repay. For her sake I'll keep on living....Naori would have wanted that. Before when I nearly died she appeared to me in a vision.
I want to think she's encouraging us to keep moving with everything we've got.
That's right. My friends give me strength and it's because of all of you that I'm still here. I already swore that I'd fight to protect these bonds with everything that I have. I won't give up just yet but I need time to get myself together.
[ He sighs a little and shakes his head. Alphen isn't going to run away from his problems after hearing all of that. ]
Would you mind waiting for Alphen to find himself? I'll become much stronger than this! I have to be stronger because Shionne is waiting for me. It's not over yet.
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[ Alphen just screams very loudly clutches his fists tightly. He makes a pained cry and looks the other way. Law just hears the laughter of a broken man who's gone so far past his own limits. ]
I haven't been able to get these nightmares out of my mind since Shionne went home. It's unbearably painful and life is so much more difficult without her. To make matters worse we've lost the Blazing Sword.
So I can't keep running away from the truth. I'm nothing more than a worthless freak who can't even die right.
Maybe it is stupid of me to keep going on this way. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't.
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[Law knew Alphen would struggle with Shionne's departure like this. He knew it was day one, the moment he heard about the nature of this world and how people can "wake up" and leave this place. but to see him in such a dire condition, well...
...It pisses him off, honestly.]
So that's it, huh? Without Shionne and the Blazing Sword, you've got nothing? All that talk about fighting for our freedom doesn't mean a damn to you if she isn't here to babysit you, is that it?!
[He sneers, a snarl forming on his lips, he clenches his fists tight.]
Without my dad's words echoing in your head and Shionne keeping an eye on you, you just think you're a burnt out husk of a man, right?!
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[ Deep down maybe Alphen already knows the answers that he's looking for. He knows their journey wasn't meaningless and they certainly changed their lives for the better. It wasn't a pointless endeavor, but he just couldn't stand to take another step without Shionne. She's the reason he's even alive to begin with. He was serious when he said that he wanted everyone to live in the future together. ]
Shionne's the reason I'm even standing here. Without Zephyr's teachings rage would have just consumed me.
On my own, I don't have anything going for me except this miserable excuse. That's what I really am.
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[Law takes steps towards Alphen. It was one thing when Alphen was in a funk after Shionne was kidnapped by Vholran and he was questioning everything about himself, but this was different. he was a disaster and acting like she was dead, when she was just home. she was literally just waking up from this dream they were all in!]
'Cause if you wanna die so badly, then I'll beat the crap out of you until you get your head on straight and stop talking stupid! Will that make you happy, Alphen?! Because I'll be damned if I'm gonna listen to the guy who saved my life talk about throwing away his own like it's not worth anything!
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[ There's still some fighting spirit in him but it's not as bright as it once was. Alphen hasn't given up on everything entirely. Law's words are starting to sink in though. ]
I feel so lost and confused without Shionne. I still haven't figured out who I am either. I'm not Iron Mask and I'm not the Blazing Sword of Calaglia. My name is Alphen. The Blazing Sword was never part of my identity.
Just what should I be doing now? [ He's so confused bro. ]
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You can start...! [...But he still punches Alphen. but in the arm, instead of trying to bust his face in.] ...By not acting like Shionne's dead, man. You're gonna see her again, so I don't think she'd like seeing you like this. And then...!
[Another punch.]
...You can stop worrying about who you need to be. You don't need to be Iron Mask, or the Blazing Sword of Calaglia, and you definitely don't need to be my dad. [Stop living in Zephyr's shadow, man. That's Law's place.
Aaaand one more punch for good measure.]
You're just Alphen. And Alphen can be whoever you want.
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What the hell are your fists made out of? Are you hiding rocks in there?
[ He knows all about how you attach rocks on for additional weights, Law. Alphen just kind of tries to recollect himself and then sighs. ]
Don't push your luck with me. Shionne's not dead, I know I'll see her again someday. I just miss her so much it hurts. Law, can you stop punching me please?
[ He said please. ]
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[And he does as he says, giving Alphen's arm one last punch, before letting his hands drop to his side. He had a lot of pent up aggression and adrenaline to let out there, okay.]
You taught the rest of us how to keep on living and be more than what we came from. So now it's your turn. Keep on living, and become someone worthy of her.
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[ Alphen looks at himself everything really hurts. He doesn't feel right and everything's a mess. Maybe he's just really tired and not making much sense. ]
I'm sorry and thank you. There's somebody else I owe a debt to that I could never repay. For her sake I'll keep on living....Naori would have wanted that. Before when I nearly died she appeared to me in a vision.
I want to think she's encouraging us to keep moving with everything we've got.
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It's pretty bad, man. So you better work on getting yourself in better shape or I'm gonna have to keep punching you to remind you you're alive.
[Is he joking, or is he serious? Do you want to find out, Alphen?]
Naori's one lady you're gonna have to keep waiting. You've got too many friends that care about you.
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[ He sighs a little and shakes his head. Alphen isn't going to run away from his problems after hearing all of that. ]
Would you mind waiting for Alphen to find himself? I'll become much stronger than this! I have to be stronger because Shionne is waiting for me. It's not over yet.
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[Law smirks, planting a hand on his hip, as he shifts his weight onto the back of his feet.]
I don't mind waiting a little longer, if it means you'll get your shit together.
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[ Alphen is trying to imagine what Law would be like in three hundred years from now. That's a lot of waiting. ]
When you get that old your hairs going to be white like mine.